“I truly felt this day would never come. Five months ago feels like years and all of a sudden I’m right where I’ve always wanted to be.”
Today was my last practice for a while at Cool Sports, my home rink. I never realized how much a 200×85 foot slab of frozen water would mean to me! Not once will I take for granted the days when I had the ice all to myself or the days where I shared it with my skating family. Packing up my things and walking out the door was all the more heart wrenching than I thought it would be. I grew up here, no matter how many times I moved this is and will always be home. The number of lessons I have learned are infinite and the friendships I’ve made will last forever in my heart.
Today I look back with especially of how my life has changed even since writing ‘a dream come true’ and man there’s a lot! Unfortunately I did not test my senior moves, or get my yoga certification but I did take one silks class, so that counts for something (right?)!! Although these things didn’t get accomplished I realize more than ever that the Lord had a different plan in mind and I’m okay with that.
Instead, I started going to the gym and actually lifting weights instead of only doing cardio and I feel I’m in the best shape because of it (s/o to Armor Gym you all will be missed). I grew to know of The gospel of Jesus Christ and gained a true relationship with our Heavenly Father. Something I definitely did not see coming. With the Church I have encountered so many amazing people that will eternally be an inspiration to me. I hold a strong testimony that doesn’t come to a halt here, but will continue to move forward with me.
I can’t decide if crying or jumping for joy is most appropriate.
Tomorrow I get on a plane for only the third time in my life! The first time I was two, and the second I jumped out of the plane to go skydiving for my 18th birthday. So actually keeping my seatbelt on may be a bit of a challenge but I’m ready for it.
Tomorrow I say “see you later” to my closest friends and family. The thought alone brings ALL the emotions to my head even as I write this. Not a lot of people were blessed to know exactly what they wanted to do with their life like I had years before this moment. I truly felt this day would never come. Five months ago feels like years and all of a sudden I’m right where I’ve always wanted to be. This being said it scares me.
Yes, I did just say living out my dream scares me. Now I know what you’re thinking, I’m crazy I know but bear with me.
I have always been chasing this dream and doing everything I could to make it a reality and now that it’s here the chasing stops in a way. As an alternative it’s time to follow. The initial (hypothetical) jump is more difficult than I had originally anticipated. While writing this I sit in my room which is a mess of stuff I have accumulated over the years unsure what to do with it all or really what to not do with it. Do I take it with me? Or do I throw it all away and start again? The list of “do I” questions could go on forever. What I’m getting at is I’m not sure what I’m doing as soon as I leave my house tomorrow morning. Maintaining a schedule has always given me comfort but from the second I leave tomorrow my life is directed and transported without my control. There is a plan and when there is a will there is a way, I’m just not sure what that means yet. I don’t know what the future holds but I know that I will never be alone and that is quite possibly the best feeling in this moment of uncertainty. I will always just be a phone call away from my family and friends, and just one prayer away from the Lord.
From this point on I’m going to share two things at the end of my blog that semi coincide with my journey. Here is the first scripture and song.
Isaiah 40:31 “But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.”